The day that changed everything
it is getting old
I am 17 years old and I have never had the thought for standing up for anyone else or even for myself, but recently the beginning of April I was being harassed. This was the first time, but you know some people finally realize it is getting old and we need to take a stand. Anyways, so this guy that was twice my size decided that I was an easy target to prey on. He started to bark in my face for no reason. Then he acted like I was a fire hydrant. yes of course I was a bit mad and like anybody else I felt the urge to plot his death, but I decided to take that anger and use it for something that is worth it. So, I got really inspired because the day before that guy barked in my face this girl actually took a stand for her and her brother against this jerk that has harassed my friend since day one of school. So I started a petition. I wrote a four page letter to my principal. I got a few friends to get my back and we turned it in together. well our principal said he would call us in. I understand he is a busy man, but when did it take one week and three days to read a letter. not that long. I have gave him enough time, but the school year is ending and I am about to move. my goal was to leave this school knowing I did everyone a favor, but it doesn't seem like it is turning out that way. I need help what else am I going to. I gave him suggestion I offered to help. you know this really wouldn't bother me this much, but those boys that I have mention has been harassing my friend and Monday I have told her teacher to move her or the problem and the teacher didn't do nothing and just yesterday my friend showed that these boys wrote slut on her hand. the teacher still didn't do anything. im tired of it is getting old. oh and today another friend of mine was being bullied by this kid that I strongly dislike. he acted like a kindergardner. he wouldn't share the glue or scissors and he started making fun her causing her to cry. MAKE IT STOP PLEASE HELP GIVE IDEAS
To Life
Chapter 1
Transition
I remember my cousin telling me to be careful because on the first transition to high school you get your ‘reputation’. In which didn’t bother me because I knew I was smart and could make loads of new friends, along with being the teacher’s pet like I was in primary school. When I took my first step on the bus it was like my stomach dropped into my bowel. All of these year 10’s staring at me yelling out “fresh meat” but I just picked a spot and continued my day, learning, making new friends and being the teachers pet like a normal child should do. I didn’t make myself noticeable to be the one picked for a ‘reputation’ because I was with my cousin so I felt safe. Primary school was a bit of a drag because most of my friends were in a grade higher than me. I felt so depressed the first few weeks in year 7 because of that reason. I was the type of girl who got along with everyone but most of my friends would be older than me because I was a bit more mature for my age. They didn’t feel ‘cool’ round me because I was younger. The girls who thought they were popular didn’t give a damn about me because I was nothing to them, just a little girl not knowing what she’s doing. My cousin and I got along very well, we would spend most of our time at our dads mums house (our Nana) and do all sorts of things like, watch movies, talk about boys and so on. That pretty much ended since starting high school because we both went our own ways.
I was so excited for high school I kept putting on my uniform 3 weeks before school actually started. The days did drag in the holidays because of the excitement, which usually happens, until my first day actually started to get closer and closer. Eventually 3 weeks gone by, I was heading to the area we get picked up by the bus 10 minutes earlier than when I should be there. My uniform was all clean and brand new (without me wearing it out in the holidays) but luckily it wasn’t showing my nervous and sick feeling. I had only just gotten over whooping cough but unluckily enough developed post viral fatigue, so I was still a bit unwell but I didn’t let that get to me. The bus was picking up students around my area one by one. There was this one boy that had 100 metres to walk to the bus stop, but being the lazy boy he is, he got his mother to take him to school each and everyday.
As soon as the bus got to school and stopped, I think my bowel fell through my butt. It was such a scary feeling having all of these older boys and girls stare at you like you were a bug in a pile of ants. I ran into all of my primary school friends, sticking in with them and adjusting to the new surroundings and people. It wasn’t the best start to the day with constantly having this yucky feeling in my stomach and all of the pretty year 10 girls sit there and judge each and every one of us. My school had a split middle and senior campus, having the year 8, 9 & 10 in the middle campus and 11 & 12 at senior. Which was a good thing I thought, I didn’t have the really big kids judge me. Constant assemblies were called to announce policies and procedures, especially bullying procedures. I didn’t take much notice in them because it was pointless to me, I could take care of myself, I thought. The day went on slow as possible but interesting meeting all of the new kids in the same position just like me, in which kept me quite comfortable. My cousin was obsessed with this drug crazed boy, went everywhere he went and took off everyday he took. I had distant myself from her eventually drifting apart and only saying ‘hello’ to each other when we past. The days I had felt alone, I did end up hanging out with her because if I sat by myself I would be called a ‘loner’. So we did get a little close when I had no one. I felt like I didn’t fit in with anyone at the school, each and everyone of the students had their own groups which you would get a funny look if you had interrupted their circle. Stupid if you asked me.
The next few weeks past, we didn’t get straight into work like we should’ve because the teachers were pretty lazy. This particular day went slow, for some reason I wasn’t having a great feeling about it. A year 10 male was throwing these invitations out to his 16th birthday party. These days it was cool to throw parties and get absolutely smashed, even at the age of 13. I thought it was cool to do it because it was the ‘in’ thing at the time. Teachers just watched this boy throw his invitations out doing absolutely shit all about it because he was one of the popular kids of the school. Totally unfair but that’s how the school system worked. “if you aren’t popular, you aren’t known by any of the teachers” in which was true because none of the teachers even recognised me. There was this one teacher (who’s name I won’t mention) but he got stoned behind the front office near his car almost everyday. How do I know this? Several witnesses. Not including the time when we were talking about my grade in geography, telling me I was around a B for the end of the semester’s grade. Wouldn’t of surprised me if he didn’t even know which student was what. All I know is that I did my work and tried to keep up with his imaginative thoughts. I was feeling quite vulnerable that day and had a big stomach along side with a headache. This was never new. I had always had stomach pains since primary school. I always felt different but this day was more unusual. Still having a lot of the year 10’s sitting there judging you everyday. Whoever went and picked up an invite that was a year 8 and wasn’t popular, probably got a funny look from the year 10 girls who most of all had their head up their arses. Funny thing was that, I really wanted to go have a look at the invite but I knew of the ‘rules’ you have to abide by if you don’t want to get judged so I just picked up my stuff and moved on. As anyone should if they didn’t want the entire world knowing made up rumours.
Chapter 2
As I should’ve been doing, was learning, staying out the way and trying to do my own thing. This was hard due to the fact that there are made up rules with the whole of year ‘10’s’ I wasn’t so sure how long it had taken place, I just knew they had to be followed.
- I knew that I couldn’t be ‘out there’ meaning having fun in silence, which isn’t really fun so basically to have no fun at all.
- Stay in our own areas and out of the way of the year 10’s
- Year 10’s can push in the canteen line and stare at you profusely while awkwardly waiting to actually get food. But then again, us year 8’s weren’t even allowed to eat food in front of them, well some chose too, some didn’t. That wasn’t the point, the point was that this was lining up to get food and eat it. Which in any form, we weren’t allowed too.
- Don’t in any way stare at the year 10’s otherwise they’ll either get in your face and yell scream and shout, making a big deal out of looking at the tree behind them, with them mistakenly thinking you were staring at them. (not that they complain, because they know they’re cool)
- Give any change you have on you, otherwise you’re known as a ‘bitch’ or ‘asshole’
They were most of the things I had picked up whilst I was there. It wasn’t too pleasant that I couldn’t feel comfortable in my own skin in my own school. Which happens to be the ‘safest place on earth!’ Didn’t and still doesn’t make sense to me.
Now, everyone in school basically knew who I was, I didn’t really know how. Maybe it was the fact that I hung out with everyone with my ‘best friend’. The boy’s party was on the night my friend decided to sleep over. She wasn’t real keen on going but I persuaded her to go with me just for half an hour. A couple of year 10 boys were literally across the road from where my house was, so we decided to go there and meet up with them. Mum got worried and kept calling me, as mothers do. As my friend and I went inside I had this gross feeling and didn’t want to stay, as for my friend, she was getting attention, from boys! So of coarse she didn’t want to leave. One of the older boys shoved a glass of vodka in my face wanting me to skull it. I didn’t feel comfortable about this so I refused a number of times before he basically baby fed it to me without my consent. My friend was having her own fun and of coarse the little girl who wasn’t at all used to alcohol (me) got pulled into one of the boys mates little brothers room. From then and there, I had blacked out waking up at home to an inbox from the boys ex-girlfriend. From the top of my memory, I acted out, I thought I could take her on. This went on through to Sunday, which was basically a full 24-hour blast on how I was a slut. Now I know that this boy and I definitely did not have sex because it would have been my first time. She thought different. His mate had a video of him and I just kissing or whatever, My ‘best friend’ videoed it for the boys mate, in the end I never got to see it. At school, I basically made my best friend go with me because I didn’t want to get confronted alone. Of coarse as soon as I get off the bus I hear “slut” “skank” “whore” “disgusting” all the names under the sun. I tried to ignore it and go on with my day. I was getting things thrown at me and all of the year 10 girls who thought they were tough followed me. Followed into the bathroom, class and around the yard. I took a step back, looked around and realized that I had no one there for me. NO ONE.
Everyone just stood there and watched as these girls were harassing me physically and mentally. The boy’s ex-girlfriend forced me to delete his number, while I was standing there so shaken. I was now known as the ‘schools slut’ because of these bullies for an unwanted and forced movement. The school counsellor just listened and laughed. Trying to sort it out right after the skinny girl who looked like Michael Jackson threatened me. Days lead to weeks and weeks lead to months of this bullshit. It was making me physically sick, every morning I was vomiting. Getting harassed over Facebook and physically pushed every time I went out for the night accidentally crossing paths with them. One particular night I went out to devine, which is a nightclub for underages. I dressed up pretty because I was meeting a boy there, about an hour into the night one of the year 10 girls decides to come up with the main bitch (the ex-girlfriend) and blew smoke in my face. The mega bitch just got her silly little boyfriend to hold her back like a kindergarten kid not getting her ice cream. I laughed in a nervous way but not to retaliate, it was quite funny though. It got to the point where I had no friends there for me at the end of the day. Yes it hurts but I had to keep moving on. I must have gotten lucky for a bit though because I told my mum who blew smoke in my face and what they did, mum immediately called this girls mother. Unexcitingly, the girl that blew smoke in my face answered the phone, not letting my mum speak to her mother about the inappropriate actions performed by this girl. I got an inbox from her profusely apologizing for what she had done and that the bullying would stop. The bullying did stop but I was still alone. The teachers all knew what had happened along giving no support because I’m not popular. It hurt to be alone.
Chapter 3
Leading too
I had put up with the bullshit long enough before facing my main bully at the front of the school with the girl mum called and my supposedly ‘best friend’. My stomach was in knots and my brain just wanted to shut down. “I’m sorry” the mega bitch said in an unmeaning full tone. With my hands shaking again I was expecting her to make a stupid comment like she did last time, apparently I “gave to many handjobs” according to her. I definitely won’t forget the hurt and pain when everyone laughed, because it was so funny and all. I wasn’t too sure what to do at this point, having given too much crap from the past. Isn’t pleasant to have thoughts of what this girl did to me., I didn’t have much liking of her at all. I immediately said “it’s ok” when not meaning any of it at all at the time. The girl who mum was on the phone to said “good now it’s all over so” and then the mega bitch interrupts “so what?, she’s not going to be my friend”. With me just standing there thinking of all the horrible things I could say without getting my face kicked in which would be the end result. She made me furious, not just her, all of them. I just had this unwanted fury inside of me wanting to lash out at her and the other girl. I was just to shy to uphold these thoughts and actually do what makes me happy, but the innocent girl makes everyone else happy but myself. After the mega bitches inappropriate comments were made, we all just moved on with the next few days like nothing ever happened. I was talking to my (now) boyfriend at whom I was hanging out with when I got smoke blown in my face, when finding out the mega bitch by the name (Kayla) was going out with his mate. Kayla started inboxing me saying we were going to be ‘close friends’ and a bunch of crap trying to suck me in like I’m dumb. Truth is, I knew she was the stupid one. She started coming up to me at school asking to hang out, I just listened and thought if I did hang out with her everyone would stop giving me this horrible name. Turns out, I did actually have a few fun times with her at school, it’s just unfortunate that she had to bully me to actually become friends with me. It’s not fair to judge me, bully me, hate me and point at me in all of the wrong ways there could be, turning out wanting to be my friend at the end. To be completely and brutally honest, I would rather die.
Almost 20 years later
Almost 19 years after I attended IS 109 in Queens, NY, a beautiful 12 year old named Gabrielle Molina committed suicide by hanging because of the bullying at the same school. I did not know Gabrielle Molina. I only know her name because I read it online last year. Yet I know of her pain. I am an alum of I.S. 109, class of 1994. I wish I could say that with pride, but the only emotion I can muster is relief—relief that I grew up to be a fully functioning adult.
I grew up on 222 Street in Queens Village, NY. I was so excited the day I started junior high because I remembered what cool things my older brother did as he got older. I looked forward to growing up. 109 seemed so full of possibilities. How foolish that seems now.
I was and am very different from the typical student at 109 because of my race, hobbies, musical tastes, vocabulary and many other things. I was one of the youngest in my class. I learned to knit when I was 10 and would occasionally bring a project to school. I love(d) to read and country music. In NYC, it is very unusual. My sense of humor has always been literal, sarcastic, and off beat. I just plain didn’t fit in as a child.
I was a bully victim at I.S. 109. I was the kid that even the smart students picked on. I was called all kinds of names from cracker to daddy long legs and lemon tree. I was pushed around and threatened on numerous occasions. I remember one instance I was at Braddock park and a gang of 10 girls from my class surrounded me, threatening to jump me. I cannot imagine how I would have felt or what I would have done if that had been recorded and posted online, as in Gabby's case. Some girls would pretend to be my friend just to talk smack to/about me with their actual friends. A few wanted to be my friend but refuse because of the fear of being associated with me.
More that the ridicule and verbal abuse, I did not feel physically safe going to IS 109. I was afraid every single day that I went to school. No child should ever feel that way.
I went on to Martin Van Buren, transferred to Cardozo and things got a lot better for me. I went to college, became a City Planner, then a Biologist and have a full life. But in my mind, on some days I still wonder if anyone could possibly like me or why anyone wants to be my friend.
I remember the fear, anger, self-loathing, depression and finally disassociation that I felt, and I don’t want anyone to go through that. It has been almost a year since Gabrielle tragically took her life. What happened to the police investigation into Gabrielle Molina’s cyber bullying case? What is the school administration and the Board of Ed doing to combat this problem?
i am a victum that story is not worth sharing,my life needs help?
i am 13 years old & in the eight grade…and a victim of bullying
i dont know how it all started our why peopple allways made fun of the way i sound asking why i sound like that (i have a very weird accent even though my parents dont have one & everyone allways ask what kind it is when i dont know) even from middle school but that wasnt that bad as soon as i started junoir high IT BECAME A NIGHTMARE! 6th grade the beging was fine i guess until the middle of the year when a girl threw a ball at me & when i asked why she sat on top of me & bruteilly beat my face in front of the whole gym class as everyone watched it took the teacher a while to evevn come & remove her and by time she did i was crying my face a huge bump the girl only recived 5 days dention wich was the same 5 days i was out to heal…from there everything only got worst 7th grade there wasnt a week when someone point & say thats the girl that got beat up by telia & laugh some sheve even said infront of a teacher''HAHA i rember when i beat her up!'' for the teaher to do nothing from there on i was pushed agiasnt a gate and hit cussed at ive even had a metal lock thrown at my head & a tissue box & when i tryed to stay calm i got up & threw both in the trash some one kept picking it up putting it back in the tisue box & throwing it to me.worst part i was in a class with the bullys..im now in 8th grade & things just barley lit up ive switched classes AGIAN a few weeks ago because a boy held my hand & pushed me harshly into a door comeing out of cooking class i then fell & everyone laughed and talked bout it…it was so hard not to cry i rushed to class next period my 'friend' discovered marks so i went to nerse when she questioned me i broke down i told them how i was injected with the staplle thing & caused to bleed how i was hit with a rag behind my ear…one thing i was scarred of more than the bullys was my mom! if she found out i didnt tell her she yell tell me to do stuff back!..i could speack up but it allways made things worst which is why i don't why i didnt want to..i speant the rest of day hiding in the office so theyede make sure all the kids left so i wouldnt get jumped & HIt on like last time hough i didnt tell last time…pushing the post button seems point less..nothing will change,it never would….though ide like to help others & stop bullying
12 Years Later
I was in 6th grade, twelve years old when I was bullied by a group of about 7 girls. I don't, to this day, know why it started. I had gone to school with these girls for 6 years, I had been in girl scouts with these girls. Mostly it started with the name calling. I was called a b**** more times than I can remember. I practically lived in the counseling office because of the constant harassment. I was getting physically ill from the stress I felt at returning to school day in and day out. Once the physical stuff started happening (girls pushing me into my locker, another girl jumping on me on the bus, being pushed in lines) was when my mom got involved. I had just gotten off the bus after being jumped on and went to the counseling center to talk to my counselor. She wasn't in so I went to the cafeteria where everyone waited before classes started. I had sat down at the table with my friends when all of the girls involved surrounded the table and started calling me names because they thought I had told on them. I called my mom sobbing as soon as I could get away, begging her to pick me up.
The school did nothing. My mom and I got the same generic response: "Girls will be girls." and so on.
My mom had met with the assistant principal, the principal, the counselors, the super intendant, and eventually pulled me out of school and got the police involved. Once the police became involved is when the school finally took action. They arranged a meeting with all the girls involved and the parents of the girls. Not all of them showed up because "There is no way my daughter did that."
The parents that did show, I remember, took to heart what the meeting was about and took steps to make sure their children no longer participated in the bullying.
The rest of that school year, which, by the time all was said and done was only a month or two, I wasn't bothered as badly by them.
I swore to myself after that happened that I would never allow that to happen to someone else. I would be the voice of other people if they were unable to speak for themselves. The following year I made good on that and helped a boy in my swim class who was being physically assaulted. I stood up to a group of three boys who were at least two years older than me.
I'm 24 now. 12 years later and I still stand by the promise I made to myself.
Me ive got be confortable
So ive been bullied off and on for a long time.... well since i can remember. I always tried to just ignore it, but in middle school i found other ways to handle it and i still have those scars. It got better once i found my good group of friends and that was as a freshman in high school. In the middle of my sophomore year i was forced to move to a new school, I was not really welcomed into the school at all.The kids at this school have all been together since kindergarten pretty much. I was the new kid, NO ONE was nice to me at all. I was treated like crap and made fun of. I was in this sociology class where i was picked on everyday. I just delt with it and then i started cutting again, knowing it was getting bad i decided i needed to say something so i told my mom what was going on and then i told the principle i was being picked on. The school did nothing. I felt not only helpless but unwanted. I triedmout for the boys lacrosse team (im a girl) After that it just got even worse. I started getting targeted after school, I was having to leave school early because i felt so unwanted. My mom had to leave work early everyday one week. Finally she was fed up and she started coming to the school and still nothing was being done. One day this boy cussed me out after school. The next day in the sociology classhe threatened to kill me. I had been told to kill myself before then and i was honestly debating it. Finally my mom had had enough and was threatening to sue the school. The school finally expelled the kid but it still hasnt fully stopped. When ever i walk down the hall i get stared at and people whisper stuff and stare and laugh at me. Ive never felt so unwanted in my life.
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the change
yeah its the same sad story little girl parents split up grew up with no friends, always bullied from name calling to physical cyber and even emotional. it got to the point where i wanted to die, and i tried. over and over, sure but the thing is this, i was in class crying and i see a quote i read it "be the change you want to see in the world". and I thought i will. i changed i asked for help, got on medication and reached out to as many as i can, because to me i am the change, i am the hand you'll hold. im the shoulder you can cry on. I am a fighter. yeah these things hurt. it still hurts but its allowed to hurt. i am a victim but im a role model yes im only 15 but stand up with me. be the change
make it to tomorrow.
"The Way She Loves Me"
I would like to start this by acknowledging the fact that my story might not be the toughest one, and maybe what I was being told weren't the meanest words; but what made them feel like knives stabbing my heart, was whose mouth (and facebook account) they were comming from.
My name is Mauricio, and I'm 19 years old (20 this Sunday May 4th). I live in a beautiful, small town in Mexico. My story begins back when I was about 13, I was in 7th grade. I remember I went to a friend's home one day and met his neighbour, a beautiful girl our age who was incredibly fun and way too smart for our age. I can remember instantly falling in love with her smile, her laughter, her words, and her eyes. That was the first time I ever felt that way about anyone. Like I could spend the rest of the day, in fact the rest of my life, just listening to her talk, and laugh, and watch her look into my eyes. So we became good friends, apparently. But whenever we spent time together, she'd always "joke" about how I wasn't "good looking" (those were the words she used first); then she would say "Just kidding!". Or maybe she sometimes added how she thought I was boring, or simply pointed out I was a little dumb. That's how it started, and it was so small and even meaningless that I never took it seriously. As time went on (now I was in 8th grade), and my caring for her became bigger and bigger, her words and actions also became more hurtful. At first she'd just stop talking to me for a while and when I asked why, she would respond with something like "because you're f*ing disgusting", and then she apologized and said she was having a bad day and ask for help. After I had helped her, she'd go and tell some of our common friends how stupid I was, and that I wasn't worth their time, so everyone should just stop listening to me. Bad luck for me, they all listened to her and would later call me a fag, a pig, a freak, a weirdo, a creep, a hopeless outsider. Then she would say she was sorry, and I forgave her every time she did this. I thought, well, maybe this is just the way she loves me. But, of course, the insults started to become stronger. She would repeat all those words to me every day, every time she had the chance to. She added that I was unworthy of love, that she had never cared, and that no one would ever care. She once said I was worthless, useless, ugly, and should think of killing myself sometime soon. All these words that came from her mouth, and that I kept encountering in our facebook conversations began to grow inside me. Making me think of myself as all that, so when she showed the slightest bit of care I didn't even think of her rude words to me. I just did as she asked and helped if she needed to. All of this continued all through 8th grade, until one day, she said something that made everything fall over me and made me fall apart. I told her how I felt about her and how I had felt that way since the first moment we met, and she replied saying she knew and she had been waiting for me to tell her so she could say something as well (of course I got very excited because she had also been keeping something to herself. She loved me too!!). And what she said was I was a poor, delusional, lonely boy who was desperate for attention. She said she thought I was the most disgusting person to ever live and she had always felt embarrassed to be seen with me. "You're worth nothing, don't you understand? How could I, or anyone, ever love a piece of nothing?", this is the only part I remember so clearly I can even quote. The she laughed to my face, slapped me so hard in my right cheek that my right eye began tearing because of the physical pain, and when she saw this she said I was miserable and pitiful, and left. All I did was go back home, and her previous words popped in my head: I SHOULD KILL MYSELF SOON. And so I took an entire box of pills, very strong pills, that my grandmother had to take for her Alzheimer's. I actually had to go to the hospital and have my stomach pumped, and every person who knew just stopped talking to me. If before this they didn't have a reason to call me freak, now they did. I was the crazy person who had attempted suicide.
I changed schools, and started fresh. I was able to make friends, good friends. I was content, but I can't say I was happy. After having cared so much for someone who hurt me so much, it was hard for me to ever trust anyone again, or even trust myself. And I have to admit it's still hard, and I'm still quite afraid of being myself because I think people might judge too harshly.
Anyway, I'm thankful I survived my suicide attempt. Because now I'm trying to help others see how we're all beautiful and love worthy. I'm really trying hard to build my self-confidence again, and I'm trying to build the life I know I deserve.
Had I died, I wouldn't have ever been able to build anything again. Not even a Lego house. And I can honestly say that this strength in me might have never shown up if I hadn't experienced what I did. So, thank you Ana. You helped more than you ever wanted to, mainly because I know you never wanted to help at all.




