Why don't they care?
I am just a normal 13 year old girl going into 8th grade. Life is rough in middle school. Especially in our generation with all these social networking sites like Instagram, Ask.fm, etc. Rumors spread like wild fires in my school, whether good or bad. Mostly bad. My life is hard but i get thru it somedays better than others. Okay now to my story and experience of bullying . It all started in 6th grade with just a couple words a week saying i was ugly or dumb. As i got older it became worse. Now its actually physically by a boy in my grade. It goes from throwing things at me, tripping me, and now actually hitting me and slapping me. Even though you tell the teaches at school all they do is shrug it off and say " c'mon man" and laugh. The verbal bullying hurts me worse. Most of it is done online by people not telling me who they are. They will send long paragraphs about why they hate me and why i should go die and rot in a hole. Somedays i think that i don't even have friends. Even though this is bad to say you really don't have anybody that cares unless you're des or actually physically bleeding. This world is so messed up nowadays. Everyone thinks that bullying will just blow over but it won't. Thousands of teens have lost their lives to bullying. How many life's will it take to get this thru people's heads? When will it end? Will it ever end? The questions may never be answered. It may be days, weeks, months, or even 20 years before everyone sees how affecting bullying is. The big question is, Why doesn't a everyone care?
living for a year but not really alive
I was about 5 years old and i had moved from california to chicago . I was so phsyched to meet new people but they weren't psyched to meet me.when i got into class my nose was running because i wasn't used to the heat this girl i sat next to me told me to give her my hand she did this weird little trick where she made me stick up my middle finger. She then raised her hand and told the teacher . Then at recess her and her friends beat me up and called me booger girl . Then the abuse started it never got better but then I moved. But the lead girls name was angel and she was not an Angel
Beginning to take chances..
Getting through the days...
I was never severely bullied, but I have been a victim of some. Starting sixth grade, people would call me fat, ugly, worthless, etc. even to my face. I remember I walked towards my crushes locker and waited with him and his best friend looked at me, and then asked him, "Why do you like her? She's fat." I told my parents, you know, and they told me to brush it off, but it's hard to do that when you start to believe it. After that, things got bad and good and was a big roller coaster. I've been diagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and anxiety. In eighth grade, I was told to go kill myself, and all I did was try to say hi to this guy. I believed him. I started cutting harder than I ever had. I told my parents, spoke to a counselor. Nothing got done. Eventually they made him write an apology letter, but it was because of his mom, not the school. Ninth grade started. I stopped cutting for a while.I was just stuck in depression and for a while, there was no teasing. At the beginning of tenth grade, it started again. I would get pushed in the hallways and hit in the arm, and people would throw things at me. They would mock me. It's gotten to the point where I am doing anything I can to get out of that school. During this year, I've come to the realization that I'm gay, and I came out to my family, and I've come out to some people at school. I was never bullied for that, but maybe it's because I wasn't around long enough for anyone to say anything. Now, I'll be attending college in the fall, and despite the scars on my thighs and my mental disorders, I'm doing the best I can to be better than anyone else. I have a lovely girlfriend who supports me, and my parents support my sexuality and who I am, and I am determined to leave my bullied life behind me. It's hard, but it is possible.
Survivor
The bullying I went through started in 3rd grade and lasted until my Jr year in high school and at that point I was fed up so I stopped going to class because I didn't want to see the bullies in my classes and have to deal with the name calling and the threats so I failed all my classes and was too far behind and I had to drop out.. I let them get the best of me. The bullying started in 3rd grade over I don't know what they would just call me "gay" "faggot" "loser" "idiot" basically every name in the book you could use to break someone down. It wasn't so bad in elementary it was when I went to middle school it got worse. I started hanging with the "cool" "popular" kids but then this girl who was dating the most "popular" guy but she liked me so she dumped him for me so he started the rumor that ruined my life saying I was gay etc. After that my life got horrible in the school environment, I would get called names and it wouldn't just happen at school it would follow me home on the internet and text messages and all this lasted until my Jr year. I would get called names and get threatened to be killed, beat up etc everyday by people I don't even know it was horrible. My freshman year I made a twitter account and it met some cool people who I thought were my friends on there but weren't one of my "twitter friends" got mad because I was talking to one of them more than the other so they started a twitter account "Closetedgays" and went through my followers list and told all my followers (Which I had over 3,000) that I was a closeted gay. I couldn't escape bullying it was everywhere I went.. I did think of suicide for the longest time and was going to attempt it but I knew it had to get better at some point and music and my family are what kept me going. Now I'm away from those bullies and my life is at a better place now and it truly has gotten better. It always does. I am a survivor of bullying. I want to show people that it does get better and you don't have to resort to suicide. Like the saying goes "Don't do something permanent over something temporary"
Looks aren't everything.
7th and 8th grade were a nightmare for me. I had long hair, listened to different music and dressed differently. I was constantly harassed, beaten up, and made fun of. It had gotten to a point where I didn't want to go to school anymore. The dean of the schools exact words were, "well if you look like that what do you expect?" It breaks my heart hearing stories of these poor kids, some of whom have taken their own lives just so they don't have to be bullied anymore. We need to make a stand, things need to change. Something has to be done, now.
Is there something WRONG with me ?
Learning to be yourself.
For years as a kid in school I was bullied for being different. Bullying doesn't have to mean you were hit or abused. Bullying can be all about the words and names you were called or overheard. All through school I was scared to be myself, a gay kid. I always thought it would be much worse if I told anyone I was gay, so I spent 12 miserable years living a lie. If it was this bad not being myself then being myself would have been much worse. No one should grow up alone, no one should have to lie about themselves just to make it through the day, no one should have to be bullied. We need to stop this NOW.
I am a Bullying Survivor
Today on the 4th of July I decided to share this movie with my almost 12 yr old son & almost 9 yr old son.
I was bullied/persecuted relentlessly from 6th grade through the end of 8th. If my main bully had not moved away it would have continued through much of high school. My bullies rode my bus, lived in my neighborhood & would chase me down on go-karts trying to run me down & break my legs.
Today, I am actually friends with a few of my former bullies who have since chosen to leave bullying behind & are truly great people I am glad to call friends. I have forgiven them & let them know that in a personal email along with how what they did as children intensely hurt me. I did not heal from bullying for the most part until that moment. I also realize while watching this movie - that I still feel the slings,arrows & major hurts from my middle school years as though it were just yesterday.
I am a Bullying Survivor & I am taking a stand for my sons, for all Bullying Victims, for their families & friends & for Reformed Bullies who made the choice to STOP hurting others after seeing how what they were doing was so extremely wrong.
Please let me know of any ways that I can help support you, this cause & in spreading the word. I choose to be a part of the Solution & to spread KINDNESS.....
Very Respectfully,
Kimberly Walking Turtle Woman March




