Throughout most of my childhood I was bullied by anyone and everyone cause of the way I dressed, the way I looked and acted or just because I wasn't "cool". I never understood why kids would pick on me but I just dealt with it most of the time or just hid the pain until I couldn't anymore. I constantly moved from town to town and school to school for different reasons and it seemed that each town I went to it got worse. I'm now 18 and have lived in the same town for 7 or 8 years. I've been bullied and picked on here worse than anywhere else because I'm "different". I'm gay but never really told anyone at first I noticed it when I hit middle school so I guess that's when everyone started to figure it out and treat me different than others. I'm a cutter it all started in 8th grade I got so depressed from all of the picking on I got sick of it and that seemed like my only way out. I've also attempted suicide more that 5 times. Till this day I still cut just not as much and I still have frequent thoughts of suicide but I hid it because I feel like no one would care since no one has ever really cared for me and my depression has only gotten worse since my best friend died almost 2 years ago. I guess the reason I'm doing this is mainly to make a difference in this cruel world because I don't want to have to see or hear about kids being picked on to the point where they don't want to live anymore. I want to help kids get through it and I want to also help myself through it.