Throwing up and starving yourself is not the way to live. Ever since I was little I have been bullied because of my weight. Since November 3rd 2013 I have gained weight and now, 4/5/13 I am 5 foot 6 and weigh 163 pounds. I used to be 5 foot 6 and weighed 125 pounds and dropping. My weight drop started end of January 2012 and lasted until beginning of April 2012. I hated my body. I used the most unhealthiest way to lose weight. I starved myself and when I did eat I would just throw it back up. I lost 30 pounds in one month. And 40 in total. I dropped from size 11/12 to 6/7 in one month. I went to a mental hospital twice and a treatment center once before i fully started to eat again. I cried when I started eating again and started to gain weight. But now I am living healthier. I still get bullied everyday, but after I have tried to end my life 7 times, UI can clearly see that someone up there clearly wants me to live. Even if I am suffering the best and wises thing I can think of is there's always tomorrow, I can learn for my mistakes, and just for today I will survive. So instead of bagging on my bullies, I thank them. I thank them for making me a stronger person and helping me figure out how to defend myself. Some advice. Every day when you wake up... Tell yourself "Just for today I will survive this mayhem"